Porn and oreos

Two things I should stay away from, lol. So today after work I was gonna come home, ride my bike, then get some things done around the house. But I decided to look at some porn for a little bit first. Well that little bit turned into an hour! I still rode my bike for almost an hour then came home and didn't feel like eating anything we had in the house, so I had some oreos and milk while watching the Biggest Loser. A little funny, huh? But I only had about five of them so it's not too terrible bad, but still bad.

So what I've learned from today: I should really stay away from porn and oreos :(

I am ready

I think I'm ready to try to start dating again. I've put my profile back up on plenty of fish and this time the description is alot more detailed and I really think it will do me more good. I think it shows off the type of person I am a little better than before. And I know it shows more of the person I want to be, because I am more of the person I want to be. I don't know if it was because of the breakup or age or what but I really seem to be getting my stuff together, and it only took 25 years, lol. I finally am doing something I can be really proud of, I've lost 18 lbs by really trying to lose weight, not by something in my life changing which results in it. Sometimes it really doesn't seem like what I've done is a big deal, I look the same to me in the mirror and there are people out there who have lost over 100lbs versus my little 18. But typing out 18 and really thinking about it, I've just realized how great that really is. I can also tell when I look at pictures, I just can't believe that 18lbs would really make me look smaller, but it does! And when I get to my goal of 125lbs I will have lost almost 30lbs!!! The closer I get to it the more excited I get and the more I want to work at losing them.

National Kidney Foundation

Nov 1st I'm gonna be walking for the National Kidney Foundation around Lake Hollingsworth here in Lakeland. A woman from my work lost her husband to the disease two years ago. Her daughter also worked in my department during her breaks from college. They both are really nice and although her daughter is one of the smartest 20-year-olds out there she makes some bad decisions when it comes to her boyfriend. But some of the smartest women I know become "dumb" when it comes to boys. If you would like to help me raise some money or see how I'm doing with raising money check out the link below.

http://nkf.convio.net/goto/rachel

Crazy busy

I'm still kinda shocked at how busy I've been the past couple of weeks. I've never been the social butterfly or even close but lately I've actually had plans for like five nights out of the week, I almost don't know what to do with myself, lol. And I keep booking things. It is so good for me to be out there enjoying life. I know it's sad to say but for the first time in my life I really feel like I can say I have friends, with an "s." I've had more than one friend at a time before but never really people I hung out with on a regular basis or even semi regular basis. I've been hanging out with April alot lately, which is so good for me. It's really nice to be around someone who really thinks, and actually has conversations deeper than just what happened today. It reminds me there are better people out there and how I shouldn't settle. I've also been hanging out with Dunstan more again, but it's not as fun as it used to be. I don't know if it's me changing or him changing, but it saddens me. He has been there for me when I really needed someone and he will forever hold a place in my heart. :) Lori has been a good new addition (not edition, hehe) Its nice to hang out with someone new, gets to the blood pumping a little, plus she seems to be down with anything that I suggestive, like cooking. Amanda has been nice to chat with and text back and forth, but she lives so far away we haven't been able to meet yet. :( And I can't wait to hang out with Eileen! We're supposed to be going to a hockey game soon and I can't wait for that! She seems like someone that would be awesome to hang out with.

Puzzle finished

So it took me a whopping week to finish a 500 piece puzzle. Does that make me a nerd, or a super nerd? It was really enjoying and it's nice to see it finished. I'm planning on getting that stuff that you put over it and it keeps the whole thing together and then framing it so I can hang it up on my wall during the fall. Even though it's Florida and we don't really have a fall.

SPCA

Today was my first day volunteering at the SPCA. And it was actually kinda boring, lol. I stood around for most of the two hours I was there and when I wasn't I cleaned two cages and changed three boxes of litter. I didn't really feel like I was helping but I'm sure after being their a couple of times that it will get better. I really hate new things, I totally feel ackward and am insercue about what I'm supposed to be doing. It's so bad that the first day I worked at HR Block I cried when I was getting ready and didn't stop until I got there. I almost didn't go. But I'm really glad I did, it's some pretty good extra money and it's not a second job I hate like Hallmark was.

Week 3, Day 2

Week 3: alt 90 sec jogging, 90 sec walking, 3 min jogging, 3 min walking for 20 minutes. This is where it starts to get hard! I wasn't sure if I was going to be able to do it, and I almost didn't, but in the end I did. I've noticed the 90 sec of jogging part is getting a little easier, and trying to think of ways to keep pushing myself through the 3 min jog. I think about Jillian Michaels from the Biggest Loser yelling behind me, I think about crossing the finsih line of a 5k, I think about how I'll be sending that text to a group of friends once I finish, and it does help. I also try to cheer and get excited after every minute or when I really feel like stopping. It's the old "fake it til you make it" theory and it actually works, for a few seconds at least, lol.