I FUCKING DID IT!!!

I jogged for 20 minutes straight without stopping. I really did want to stop at quite a few different points but never did. I almost can't believe I did it, I mean the longest I've jogged so far without stopping was 8 minutes. I will so be able to do that 5k at the end of Feb, I am so excited!!! Another thing I'm excited about is Big Love coming back finally. I think it's been over a year since the end of last season, but HBO tends to do that sometimes. The bad thing about that is I should be in my new apartment by then and I won't have HBO. But hopefully it will come on during a time that my mom doesn't have two things already recording and she can record it for me.

My sister Shaina called me this morning asking if I wanted to go to Wal-Mart with her and the kids. I went and then I played with them outside and we had grilled cheese sandwiches under the tree and we finally made ornaments. Niccoma wasn't as into it as I was hoping he would be that's ok. I think it will be better next year. At first Nala didn't really want to get her fingers in the glue but after my sister came over and started helping her she was better. They are drying now and I'll finish them up either Tuesday or Wednesday. Then Momma bought us Chinese for dinner. It was kinda tempting to try a chicken wing or have some won ton soup, but I held back and just ate my steamed vegetables and rice. It was still a good supper. I was also tempted to have some soda earlier in the day but that didn't last very long.

Jogging and Indian food

So yesterday after work I went and looked for more apartments for rent with April, wrote down a few numbers that I'll call today. Some looked really cute from the outside but none had how much the rent is so I get to find all that out today. Then we went jogging and it wasn't bad. We did an 8 minute jog then walked 5 minutes then jogged another 8. That was the longest we've jogged so far. For our third run for the week which we'll probably do Sunday we're supposed to try to jog for 20 minutes straight. I'm not 100% sure I'm gonna be able to do it but I'm gonna try. And I'm ok if I don't do it, I know I could do at least 10 so if I do that I think I'll be happy.

Then we went to an Indian restaurant and it was really good. I had some mango drink which was really good, then we got an appetizer with some fried potato thing, fried onion (we think, lol) and some chicken things. I had actually not had any meat since Wednesday at lunch but I did have one of the chicken things, but no beef! But I shared an entree with April which of course didn't have any meat in it since she doesn't eat meat and it was really good. I really shouldn't have gone since I didn't really have the money in my budget for it but I really wanted to try Indian food and hang out with April and Philip more. I know I'm under for stuff like gas so I'll be ok and if I don't need to buy anything else for the month I should be ok in my personal money too. The month is also 3/4 over and not drinking soda or having beef has been really easy. I really haven't had the desire for a soda and I've had the desire for steak once when my mom made herself one but that was only when I smelled it and that didn't last too long. I'm not 100% sure if I'm going to completely cut out meat one day but I'm toying with the idea.

Updates

Exercise: I've starting jogging with my friend April and her husband. We've been taking it kinda slow but I'm ok with that. We've doing each week twice instead of just once. But I should still be about to the 5k in Feb like I want to. I've kinda cut back on the bike riding and my 8 minutes in the morning, but I will get back to them next week!

Boys: Like the last post states I've done with him. I've also hidden my profile on plentyoffish for the moment. I think I need to give myself a little more time before I try again.

Friends: Still talking to Lori, Amanda, and Eileen.

Me: I kinda feel like either I've undone everything I did in the past five months or that they just don't mean anything anymore. But maybe that's just cause of having a bad weekend or knowing that I still have lots to work on. Either way I think that feeling is going to change this coming up weekend.

Puzzles: I finally got a frame for my puzzle, but I don't have any place to hang it. I'm gonna wait til at least December to start on the next one.

Volunteering: I haven't been to the SPCA in three weeks, just haven't really felt like it. I'm on vacation this coming up Thursday til next Wednesday so I might not go this week either, but I will be back the following week.

I am ready

I think I'm ready to try to start dating again. I've put my profile back up on plenty of fish and this time the description is alot more detailed and I really think it will do me more good. I think it shows off the type of person I am a little better than before. And I know it shows more of the person I want to be, because I am more of the person I want to be. I don't know if it was because of the breakup or age or what but I really seem to be getting my stuff together, and it only took 25 years, lol. I finally am doing something I can be really proud of, I've lost 18 lbs by really trying to lose weight, not by something in my life changing which results in it. Sometimes it really doesn't seem like what I've done is a big deal, I look the same to me in the mirror and there are people out there who have lost over 100lbs versus my little 18. But typing out 18 and really thinking about it, I've just realized how great that really is. I can also tell when I look at pictures, I just can't believe that 18lbs would really make me look smaller, but it does! And when I get to my goal of 125lbs I will have lost almost 30lbs!!! The closer I get to it the more excited I get and the more I want to work at losing them.

Week 3, Day 2

Week 3: alt 90 sec jogging, 90 sec walking, 3 min jogging, 3 min walking for 20 minutes. This is where it starts to get hard! I wasn't sure if I was going to be able to do it, and I almost didn't, but in the end I did. I've noticed the 90 sec of jogging part is getting a little easier, and trying to think of ways to keep pushing myself through the 3 min jog. I think about Jillian Michaels from the Biggest Loser yelling behind me, I think about crossing the finsih line of a 5k, I think about how I'll be sending that text to a group of friends once I finish, and it does help. I also try to cheer and get excited after every minute or when I really feel like stopping. It's the old "fake it til you make it" theory and it actually works, for a few seconds at least, lol.

Bike riding

Bike riding with Lori in Citrus Park. I know you can't see the bikes, but trust me they were there.

I still kick ass!!!

Week 2, Day 1: alternating 1 1/2 minutes of jogging with 2 minutes of walking.

Today started week 2 in my jogging training program and it kicked my ass! I was doing pretty good with the 1 minute of jogging but the minute and a half was really hard, I almost didn't think I was gonna be able to do it each. But I did and it felt really really good. Just thinking about how I can go from barely being able to jog 1 minute without stopping to jogging a 5k just feels awesome. I am really pround of myself for keeping up with it like I have. At times it felt really weird, like after the first minute of jogging it almost felt kinda like I wasn't apart of my body anymore and that it just kept going on it's own, like it knew if I really had control over it that I would stop and not do the last 30 seconds. My schedule is so busy that I won't be able to jog again until Friday, but I'm gonna try to get lots of walking inbetween.

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I talked to a guy on yahoo tonight that I met off of plentyoffish.com (POF) and have since deleted him off my buddy list. Within five minutes of talking he wanted to met and he kept talking about cuddling. When I asked if he really liked to cuddle he said yes, that it ties in with sex. Now why would you say that to a woman unless you just want sex from her? I try to stay away from guys who really talk about wanting to cuddle, they seem to be needy. Don't get me wrong, not that I don't want a guy who likes to cuddle, because I LOVE to cuddle, but do you really need to keep talking about it? Or even mention it at all? When trying to get to know someone I'm not gonna even factor that in, that is something for after I get comfortable with him.

I feel awesome!!!

Earlier I did my first 20 min workout of alternating 60 seconds of jogging and one and a half minutes of walking without stopping or slowing down. It felt so awesome!!! If I keep up on the program I'm doing I'll be on track to do the 5k in Feb. It is going to feel so awesome when I do that. When I exericse like that I can really tell a difference in my mood afterwards. I was feeling a tiny bit down, thinking about stuff that I shouldn't, but once I was done the feelings were gone!!!

It's time for me!!!

It's time to work on me. It's been three and a half months since Paul and I broke up and while I have worked on a few things I'm nowhere close to where I want to be. I've lost about 15lbs since then but I'd like to lose about 15 more, and I think I can do it. I'm doing pretty good on my eating and I'm trying with my exercising. I've started doing the "8 Minutes In the Morning" strength training and so far I've been doing pretty good with it. It's not the same boring 20 minutes 3x a week, so I think I can keep up with it. Then there's my jogging, I would like to be able to do the Gasparilla 5k in Feb. I started the training going pretty good but have been kinda lacks lately. I think part of the problems is trying to jog when the weather is so warm, so I'm gonna try to do more later in the evening.

The next thing I want to work on is volunteering more. My friend April and I are going to start doing Habitat for Humanity on Sat mornings from 8-12 and tonight I'm going to a volunteer information session with the local SPCA. I've been reading a book on Buddhism and part of what I've really liked in the reading is the importance of giving to others, including animals. I've always felt you should help others and have done volunteer work before but nothing in a long time. I really feel that once I start doing these things I will start to feel better and better things will happen to me. I also plan on giving $20/month to charity. Again something I've done before but haven't in a long time. Last month I gave to AIDS Walk St. Pete because the boyfriend of Taylor from the Podcast, "Pod is My Copilot" was trying to raise money for it. I think I'm gonna start asking Podcasts that I listen to choose the charity and challenge their other listeners to donation also. I don't know if that will actually get other people to donate money but it might.