I cleaned like a madwoman today. I cleaned my room, my car and the kitchen. I probably could have cleaned a little more but I'm so tired. I really feel alot better now that my room is clean. There was so much stuff on the other bed and with that stuff gone through and put away the room looks bigger. I've been trying to think about what to do with my books since I don't have room for my book shelve and I finally figured it out. I made two stacks on my dresser, with the biggest at the bottom, of course. They actually look really nice there.
I've decided to give myself a challenge for December. I'm not going to have any soda for the whole month. If Walt can go a year without it, I can go 31 days. But I haven't decided on my reward. Clothes would be pointless because I'm spending my bonus check on that once I reach my goal weight, 5lbs to go, and the only "big" idea that I really want is the Kindle from Amazon.com, but it's almost $400 with tax and I'm not sure if I'm ok with spending that much money on it. Maybe I can find something else, something cheaper to reward myself.
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Thanksgiving sucked!
I ate by myself this year. My mom cooked but as soon as she was done she took a plate to her mother who lives in a nursing home, and I was starving so I ate in my room alone. I'm not a very big holiday person but that did kinda suck. But I did get a good walk in and cleaned my room some. My sister and brother-in-law came over at around 7 with my niece and nephew. They ate and I played with the kids some and they left around 8:30. That was my whole Thanksgiving. It really made me miss being with ex, not him really, but his family. He has a pretty big family and holidays are a big deal to them. But I have no desire to be with him at all. The more I think about him the more I realize the mental problems he must have when it comes to relationships. I really don't think he wanted to be with me, just someone that he could settle down with, have kids, have them be apart of his family. That really hurts to think about that, but then again I think I was the same way a little bit. But I don't regret the relationship in the slightest bit, I have learned some much from it.
I have taken my profile off the dating website I was using, I don't really think I'm ready to find that person yet. I still have things about myself that I need to work on. I told mustanger2001 to stop contacting me, he starting pulling this, "this really sucks, I really liked you, blah blah blah." He was a little too mental for me, and I did meet this other guy named Mike. He was cool and smart and sweet but there just wasn't a spark. I was supposed to go over to his house yesterday and plant some trees with him but I started watching a show on the History channel about Abe Lincoln's assassination and didn't want to stop watching it to go over there. Sad I know, but I guess if it's just not there it's just not there. The planting trees thing was really cute, he told me the other day how he was cutting down one of the trees in his yard and I asked if he planted three more somewhere else and he said no, but that he'd buy some and we could plant them. I thought that was really cute of him and would have been an awesome story if we ever got together, but that's not gonna happen.
Friday started off good, I got more cleaning done and then was in the mood to shop so I called my sister. She said she was just getting the kids fed and to come on over. It was another hour before we left her house, almost the whole time I was sitting there thinking how much cleaning I could be getting done at home while waiting for them. Then we were off and our first stop was Linen N Things. I was done in about 20 minutes, got a cover for my flat iron and some lint rollers, but my sister was looking around for about an hour! Finally at one point I said I was checking out then going over to Target. Target was a total bust, I tried on a whole bunch of clothes and didn't like any of them. The only good thing that came out was that I found out I wear a size 8 now, that is so crazy! I really need new work clothes but haven't really been in the mood to go shopping.
I have taken my profile off the dating website I was using, I don't really think I'm ready to find that person yet. I still have things about myself that I need to work on. I told mustanger2001 to stop contacting me, he starting pulling this, "this really sucks, I really liked you, blah blah blah." He was a little too mental for me, and I did meet this other guy named Mike. He was cool and smart and sweet but there just wasn't a spark. I was supposed to go over to his house yesterday and plant some trees with him but I started watching a show on the History channel about Abe Lincoln's assassination and didn't want to stop watching it to go over there. Sad I know, but I guess if it's just not there it's just not there. The planting trees thing was really cute, he told me the other day how he was cutting down one of the trees in his yard and I asked if he planted three more somewhere else and he said no, but that he'd buy some and we could plant them. I thought that was really cute of him and would have been an awesome story if we ever got together, but that's not gonna happen.
Friday started off good, I got more cleaning done and then was in the mood to shop so I called my sister. She said she was just getting the kids fed and to come on over. It was another hour before we left her house, almost the whole time I was sitting there thinking how much cleaning I could be getting done at home while waiting for them. Then we were off and our first stop was Linen N Things. I was done in about 20 minutes, got a cover for my flat iron and some lint rollers, but my sister was looking around for about an hour! Finally at one point I said I was checking out then going over to Target. Target was a total bust, I tried on a whole bunch of clothes and didn't like any of them. The only good thing that came out was that I found out I wear a size 8 now, that is so crazy! I really need new work clothes but haven't really been in the mood to go shopping.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Nine Words Women Use
I don't normally get alot of these and when I do I normally just have a little giggle then delete them, but this is a little truer then most of them and I think guys could learn from this.
NINE WORDS WOMEN USE
(1) Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.
(2) Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.
(3) Nothing: This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.
(4) Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!
(5) Loud Sigh: This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing.)
(6) That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.
(7) Thanks: A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint.. Just say you're welcome. (I want to add in a clause here - This is true, unless she says 'Thanks a lot' - that is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say 'you're welcome' . That will bring on a 'whatever').
(8) Whatever: Is a woman's way of saying F--- YOU!
(9) Don't worry about it, I got it: Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to # 3.
NINE WORDS WOMEN USE
(1) Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.
(2) Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.
(3) Nothing: This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.
(4) Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!
(5) Loud Sigh: This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing.)
(6) That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.
(7) Thanks: A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint.. Just say you're welcome. (I want to add in a clause here - This is true, unless she says 'Thanks a lot' - that is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say 'you're welcome' . That will bring on a 'whatever').
(8) Whatever: Is a woman's way of saying F--- YOU!
(9) Don't worry about it, I got it: Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to # 3.
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Motorcycles suck
My dad recked his motorcycle yesterday and he's in the hospital. According to what his buddy said, he was going around a curve and hit some gravel, flipped a few times and then was thrown from the bike. He broke a few bones in his face and has some bleeding on the brain, but nothing from the neck down. They are keeping him sedated for a few more days to help with the healing. When they lessen the drugs he is able to move the rest of his body so that's a good thing. Now it's just a waiting game. They are monitoring the swelling and won't know about any permanent damage for a while.
Now I tend to handle these types of things really well and have been doing ok. Yesterday I left work and went to the hospital. We only got to see him twice for a few minutes each time. It was really weird. He was completely sedated and his hands were really cold, my dad's hands are never cold. I didn't go over there today, I ended up working ten hours and I think I'm getting sick, plus there really isn't anything I can do for him. I'll go sometime in the next few days.
I'm not worried that he's gonna die, and I'm not freaked out that I may have a father that has some issues (new issues I should say, like most of us he already had some, lol) but I'm really scared he's not gonna remember who I am. The doctors haven't said a word about what type of damage he might have so I don't have much basis on that, but I guess in my mind that would be the worse.
Now I tend to handle these types of things really well and have been doing ok. Yesterday I left work and went to the hospital. We only got to see him twice for a few minutes each time. It was really weird. He was completely sedated and his hands were really cold, my dad's hands are never cold. I didn't go over there today, I ended up working ten hours and I think I'm getting sick, plus there really isn't anything I can do for him. I'll go sometime in the next few days.
I'm not worried that he's gonna die, and I'm not freaked out that I may have a father that has some issues (new issues I should say, like most of us he already had some, lol) but I'm really scared he's not gonna remember who I am. The doctors haven't said a word about what type of damage he might have so I don't have much basis on that, but I guess in my mind that would be the worse.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
How to push a girl away aka stupid boys
A real IM conversation I had Monday night. He then sends me another message tuesday when I'm offline asking if I like hanging out and talking to him. I replied yes, but that this convo really put me off, gave him a little advice and told him good luck. I just wonder what he's reply to that with.
mustanger2001: hey u there?
mspink_infinity: yes I am
mspink_infinity: nice and almost toasty
mustanger2001: are you still wanting to get together friday night or no
mustanger2001: im glad ur toasty
mspink_infinity: yes and I'm only almost toasty, not quite all the way
mustanger2001: yes? and y almost toasty
mspink_infinity: yes to friday
mustanger2001: ok good
mspink_infinity: and it's still a little cold in my room
mustanger2001: ohh ok
mustanger2001: r u able to drink milk?
mspink_infinity: yes
mspink_infinity: why?
mustanger2001: im not and i had a bowl of cherrios with milk and ohh boy am i feeling it
mspink_infinity: lol, silly, why did you do that?
mustanger2001: i like my cerials
mustanger2001: cereals
mspink_infinity: why not use soy milk for it then
mustanger2001: im lactose intolerant
mustanger2001: i dont like soy milk
mspink_infinity: have you tried only one brand?
mustanger2001: yeah a long time ago and i didnt like it
mspink_infinity: you should try it again, and make sure you try a vanilla flavored one, they have improved things and different brands do taste different
mustanger2001: if i do anythang that you dont like tell me don hold it back
mustanger2001: ok i will do that
mspink_infinity: ok
mspink_infinity: when you tried it, did you try drinking it or just using it in cereal?
mustanger2001: cereal
mspink_infinity: I don't think I could drink it like milk but I'm fine with using it in cereal
mustanger2001: i felt bad earlier
mspink_infinity: it's ok
mustanger2001: i wished it was warmer out side and we couldve sat on a bench and talked a lil or something
mustanger2001: what are your two fav colors
mspink_infinity: red and black
mustanger2001: are you shittin me
mspink_infinity: no, why?
mustanger2001: those are mine
mustanger2001: whats your fav movis of all time
mustanger2001: movies*
mspink_infinity: American Beauty
mustanger2001: ok ok i gotcha
mustanger2001: milk or dark chocalate
mspink_infinity: sometimes depends on what it is, but overall dark
mustanger2001: nice
mustanger2001: lets see what else
mustanger2001: fav food
mspink_infinity: chicken
mustanger2001: i thought you preferred red meat
mspink_infinity: I said I'm really loving steak right now
mspink_infinity: but I still say chicken is my fav
mustanger2001: and i also mean like italian , mexican , cuban, ...
mustanger2001: ohh ok im sorry
mspink_infinity: any of those, in chicken, lol
mspink_infinity: probably italian, I love cheese
mustanger2001: i love mexican even though im italian
mustanger2001: how many people have you been with?
mspink_infinity: I don't know the exact number right off the top of my head but it's a little over 20, I think
mspink_infinity: or maybe just a little under 20
mustanger2001: how many have you slept with or done thangs with
mspink_infinity: those are people i've slept with, and I've probably only done things with maybe a few other people
mustanger2001: wow ok
mspink_infinity: wow?
mustanger2001: i dont mean it like that
mspink_infinity: then what did you mean?
mustanger2001: what i mean is open mouth insert foot on me
mspink_infinity: yeah
mustanger2001: now u think im an ass dont you
mspink_infinity: not quite, lol
mspink_infinity: it could have been a worse comment
mustanger2001: im not trying to be mean im sorry
mspink_infinity: it's ok
mustanger2001: how many other guys are you talking to at this point in time from the site pof.com
mspink_infinity: 1
mustanger2001: does he live in lakeland as well
mspink_infinity: no
mustanger2001: ohh ok
mustanger2001: i mean are you looking for a relationship
mustanger2001: or just gonna have fun
mspink_infinity: I don't really know, my ex and I got really close to getting back together but didn't, and that only happen a little over a week ago
mspink_infinity: so I'm still kinda dealing with that, right now I'm just talking to and hanging out with people
mustanger2001: ohh ok
mspink_infinity: if it turns into something with someone then great, if it doesn't I'm ok with that
mspink_infinity: I'm just taking things really slow and not stressing about anything
mustanger2001: well let me ask you this with what you know of me would i be the type of person you would have a relationship with
mustanger2001: tell the truth
mspink_infinity: I don't really know yet, I don't want to jump to any conclusions about you so early
mspink_infinity: I barely know you
mustanger2001: ok sounds fair
mustanger2001: are you a cheater
mspink_infinity: no
mspink_infinity: and not that I'm lying but do you really think someone would admit to that right away?
mustanger2001: dont know but i always ask that
mspink_infinity: has anyone ever told you yes?
mustanger2001: yea a few in the past
mspink_infinity: wow
mspink_infinity: that's cool that they admitted though
mustanger2001: i dont put up with head games thats why im straight forward
mspink_infinity: ok
mustanger2001: i dont touch any one with out permission and both parties consent
mustanger2001: like saturday night when we hugged
mspink_infinity: did you ask a girl if you can kiss her?
mustanger2001: yes i do
mspink_infinity: lol
mustanger2001: y u laugh at me
mspink_infinity: I think that' skinda funny
mustanger2001: i told you im pure of heart
mustanger2001: its called respect
mustanger2001: come on your southern you know
mspink_infinity: I understand wanting to respect someone but with something like that I sometimes think it's funny
mustanger2001: im just woundering how soft your skin is
mspink_infinity: it puts the lotion on its skin
mspink_infinity: lol
mustanger2001: i mean you have a beautiful smile and a great deeanor
mustanger2001: demeanor
mspink_infinity: thank you
mustanger2001: if you and ur ex get back together i wish you the best of luck and happiness
mspink_infinity: we're not getting back together
mspink_infinity: we haven't had any contact since last tuesday and I've told him to never contact me again
mspink_infinity: and even if I wanted to my friends and family would not let me get back together with him
mustanger2001: i was just saying
mustanger2001: i dont want to upset you
mspink_infinity: you don't even have to mention me getting together with anyone
mustanger2001: huh ?
mspink_infinity: I'm just saying you don't have to mention it, and you shouldn't worry about it
mustanger2001: im not worrying about it
mustanger2001: to each there own
mustanger2001: all im saying and you know im up front with you is that i do like you alot and i would like to know alot more about you
mspink_infinity: then get to know me, not tell me you wish me luck with get back together with my ex
mustanger2001: im trying to get to know you
mspink_infinity: ok
mustanger2001: so were do you see ur self in three years
mspink_infinity: i really have no idea
mustanger2001: do u live day 2 day or you look in the future so you know what you have to do today
mspink_infinity: I always look to the future, but right now I'm just not sure what's going to happen in my life or if I'm going to make any major chances soon
mustanger2001: ok
mustanger2001: do you want a family
mspink_infinity: a part of me does and a part of me doesn't
mspink_infinity: I'm sure it would depend on who I ended up with if I did have kids or not
mustanger2001: are you able to have kids?
mspink_infinity: I assume I am
mustanger2001: well ok
mustanger2001: im sorry if im prying
mspink_infinity: it's ok
mspink_infinity: I have no reason to believe I can't but I've never been pregnant so I can't say for sure that I can
mustanger2001: im not gonna lie and i would never lie to you but i do find you very attractive and i am attracted to you alot you are very very beautiful and very intelligent
mspink_infinity: is that a round about way of saying you want to have kids with me? lol
mustanger2001: lol
mustanger2001: no thats not what i meant just read it again
mspink_infinity: I know, but if you look at it, you ask if I could have kids, then you say you're attracted to me, then you say I'm intelligent
mustanger2001: im just saying in a nice and complimentitive way that i really like you
mspink_infinity: I get that, I was trying to be funny
mustanger2001: ohh ok
mustanger2001: im a dumbass
mustanger2001: the only thang i dont like about you
mustanger2001: is that your not a big car buff but thats ok we can work with that
mspink_infinity: lol
mustanger2001: how do you feel about me ?
mustanger2001: not sure
mustanger2001: feel is the wrong word
mustanger2001: dont worry bout that question
mustanger2001: um ..... i dont know i guess if you want to do something friday night call me on thursday so we can make arrangements
mspink_infinity: ok
mustanger2001: you talking to that other guy ?
mspink_infinity: right this second?
mustanger2001: kindve a lil triangle thang
mustanger2001: its cool
mustanger2001: i dont care
mspink_infinity: I was asking if you meant right this second?
mustanger2001: it doesnt matter
mspink_infinity: you're right
mustanger2001: if we were together then it would matter
mustanger2001: but were not so it doesnt
mspink_infinity: that's right
mustanger2001: lets put it this way im looking for commitment are you the commitment type?
mspink_infinity: yes, but I don't know if I want one with you
mspink_infinity: I don't know you well enough to answer that
mustanger2001: im not saying with me its just a general question
mustanger2001: but i do thank you for that burn
mspink_infinity: burn?
mustanger2001: Rachel: yes, but I don't know if I want one with you
mspink_infinity: I don't know you well enough to answer that
mustanger2001: its ok well like i said friday if you want to do something call me on thursday
mspink_infinity: ok
mustanger2001: good night and take care
mspink_infinity: night
mustanger2001: hey u there?
mspink_infinity: yes I am
mspink_infinity: nice and almost toasty
mustanger2001: are you still wanting to get together friday night or no
mustanger2001: im glad ur toasty
mspink_infinity: yes and I'm only almost toasty, not quite all the way
mustanger2001: yes? and y almost toasty
mspink_infinity: yes to friday
mustanger2001: ok good
mspink_infinity: and it's still a little cold in my room
mustanger2001: ohh ok
mustanger2001: r u able to drink milk?
mspink_infinity: yes
mspink_infinity: why?
mustanger2001: im not and i had a bowl of cherrios with milk and ohh boy am i feeling it
mspink_infinity: lol, silly, why did you do that?
mustanger2001: i like my cerials
mustanger2001: cereals
mspink_infinity: why not use soy milk for it then
mustanger2001: im lactose intolerant
mustanger2001: i dont like soy milk
mspink_infinity: have you tried only one brand?
mustanger2001: yeah a long time ago and i didnt like it
mspink_infinity: you should try it again, and make sure you try a vanilla flavored one, they have improved things and different brands do taste different
mustanger2001: if i do anythang that you dont like tell me don hold it back
mustanger2001: ok i will do that
mspink_infinity: ok
mspink_infinity: when you tried it, did you try drinking it or just using it in cereal?
mustanger2001: cereal
mspink_infinity: I don't think I could drink it like milk but I'm fine with using it in cereal
mustanger2001: i felt bad earlier
mspink_infinity: it's ok
mustanger2001: i wished it was warmer out side and we couldve sat on a bench and talked a lil or something
mustanger2001: what are your two fav colors
mspink_infinity: red and black
mustanger2001: are you shittin me
mspink_infinity: no, why?
mustanger2001: those are mine
mustanger2001: whats your fav movis of all time
mustanger2001: movies*
mspink_infinity: American Beauty
mustanger2001: ok ok i gotcha
mustanger2001: milk or dark chocalate
mspink_infinity: sometimes depends on what it is, but overall dark
mustanger2001: nice
mustanger2001: lets see what else
mustanger2001: fav food
mspink_infinity: chicken
mustanger2001: i thought you preferred red meat
mspink_infinity: I said I'm really loving steak right now
mspink_infinity: but I still say chicken is my fav
mustanger2001: and i also mean like italian , mexican , cuban, ...
mustanger2001: ohh ok im sorry
mspink_infinity: any of those, in chicken, lol
mspink_infinity: probably italian, I love cheese
mustanger2001: i love mexican even though im italian
mustanger2001: how many people have you been with?
mspink_infinity: I don't know the exact number right off the top of my head but it's a little over 20, I think
mspink_infinity: or maybe just a little under 20
mustanger2001: how many have you slept with or done thangs with
mspink_infinity: those are people i've slept with, and I've probably only done things with maybe a few other people
mustanger2001: wow ok
mspink_infinity: wow?
mustanger2001: i dont mean it like that
mspink_infinity: then what did you mean?
mustanger2001: what i mean is open mouth insert foot on me
mspink_infinity: yeah
mustanger2001: now u think im an ass dont you
mspink_infinity: not quite, lol
mspink_infinity: it could have been a worse comment
mustanger2001: im not trying to be mean im sorry
mspink_infinity: it's ok
mustanger2001: how many other guys are you talking to at this point in time from the site pof.com
mspink_infinity: 1
mustanger2001: does he live in lakeland as well
mspink_infinity: no
mustanger2001: ohh ok
mustanger2001: i mean are you looking for a relationship
mustanger2001: or just gonna have fun
mspink_infinity: I don't really know, my ex and I got really close to getting back together but didn't, and that only happen a little over a week ago
mspink_infinity: so I'm still kinda dealing with that, right now I'm just talking to and hanging out with people
mustanger2001: ohh ok
mspink_infinity: if it turns into something with someone then great, if it doesn't I'm ok with that
mspink_infinity: I'm just taking things really slow and not stressing about anything
mustanger2001: well let me ask you this with what you know of me would i be the type of person you would have a relationship with
mustanger2001: tell the truth
mspink_infinity: I don't really know yet, I don't want to jump to any conclusions about you so early
mspink_infinity: I barely know you
mustanger2001: ok sounds fair
mustanger2001: are you a cheater
mspink_infinity: no
mspink_infinity: and not that I'm lying but do you really think someone would admit to that right away?
mustanger2001: dont know but i always ask that
mspink_infinity: has anyone ever told you yes?
mustanger2001: yea a few in the past
mspink_infinity: wow
mspink_infinity: that's cool that they admitted though
mustanger2001: i dont put up with head games thats why im straight forward
mspink_infinity: ok
mustanger2001: i dont touch any one with out permission and both parties consent
mustanger2001: like saturday night when we hugged
mspink_infinity: did you ask a girl if you can kiss her?
mustanger2001: yes i do
mspink_infinity: lol
mustanger2001: y u laugh at me
mspink_infinity: I think that' skinda funny
mustanger2001: i told you im pure of heart
mustanger2001: its called respect
mustanger2001: come on your southern you know
mspink_infinity: I understand wanting to respect someone but with something like that I sometimes think it's funny
mustanger2001: im just woundering how soft your skin is
mspink_infinity: it puts the lotion on its skin
mspink_infinity: lol
mustanger2001: i mean you have a beautiful smile and a great deeanor
mustanger2001: demeanor
mspink_infinity: thank you
mustanger2001: if you and ur ex get back together i wish you the best of luck and happiness
mspink_infinity: we're not getting back together
mspink_infinity: we haven't had any contact since last tuesday and I've told him to never contact me again
mspink_infinity: and even if I wanted to my friends and family would not let me get back together with him
mustanger2001: i was just saying
mustanger2001: i dont want to upset you
mspink_infinity: you don't even have to mention me getting together with anyone
mustanger2001: huh ?
mspink_infinity: I'm just saying you don't have to mention it, and you shouldn't worry about it
mustanger2001: im not worrying about it
mustanger2001: to each there own
mustanger2001: all im saying and you know im up front with you is that i do like you alot and i would like to know alot more about you
mspink_infinity: then get to know me, not tell me you wish me luck with get back together with my ex
mustanger2001: im trying to get to know you
mspink_infinity: ok
mustanger2001: so were do you see ur self in three years
mspink_infinity: i really have no idea
mustanger2001: do u live day 2 day or you look in the future so you know what you have to do today
mspink_infinity: I always look to the future, but right now I'm just not sure what's going to happen in my life or if I'm going to make any major chances soon
mustanger2001: ok
mustanger2001: do you want a family
mspink_infinity: a part of me does and a part of me doesn't
mspink_infinity: I'm sure it would depend on who I ended up with if I did have kids or not
mustanger2001: are you able to have kids?
mspink_infinity: I assume I am
mustanger2001: well ok
mustanger2001: im sorry if im prying
mspink_infinity: it's ok
mspink_infinity: I have no reason to believe I can't but I've never been pregnant so I can't say for sure that I can
mustanger2001: im not gonna lie and i would never lie to you but i do find you very attractive and i am attracted to you alot you are very very beautiful and very intelligent
mspink_infinity: is that a round about way of saying you want to have kids with me? lol
mustanger2001: lol
mustanger2001: no thats not what i meant just read it again
mspink_infinity: I know, but if you look at it, you ask if I could have kids, then you say you're attracted to me, then you say I'm intelligent
mustanger2001: im just saying in a nice and complimentitive way that i really like you
mspink_infinity: I get that, I was trying to be funny
mustanger2001: ohh ok
mustanger2001: im a dumbass
mustanger2001: the only thang i dont like about you
mustanger2001: is that your not a big car buff but thats ok we can work with that
mspink_infinity: lol
mustanger2001: how do you feel about me ?
mustanger2001: not sure
mustanger2001: feel is the wrong word
mustanger2001: dont worry bout that question
mustanger2001: um ..... i dont know i guess if you want to do something friday night call me on thursday so we can make arrangements
mspink_infinity: ok
mustanger2001: you talking to that other guy ?
mspink_infinity: right this second?
mustanger2001: kindve a lil triangle thang
mustanger2001: its cool
mustanger2001: i dont care
mspink_infinity: I was asking if you meant right this second?
mustanger2001: it doesnt matter
mspink_infinity: you're right
mustanger2001: if we were together then it would matter
mustanger2001: but were not so it doesnt
mspink_infinity: that's right
mustanger2001: lets put it this way im looking for commitment are you the commitment type?
mspink_infinity: yes, but I don't know if I want one with you
mspink_infinity: I don't know you well enough to answer that
mustanger2001: im not saying with me its just a general question
mustanger2001: but i do thank you for that burn
mspink_infinity: burn?
mustanger2001: Rachel: yes, but I don't know if I want one with you
mspink_infinity: I don't know you well enough to answer that
mustanger2001: its ok well like i said friday if you want to do something call me on thursday
mspink_infinity: ok
mustanger2001: good night and take care
mspink_infinity: night
Monday, November 17, 2008
Dates!!!
I had two dates this past weekend, ok well one was a real date and one was just meeting a guy.
Friday Clark/Sabo (he normally goes by Sabo but I don't know if I feel comfortable calling him that) came all the way to Lakeland from Altamonte Springs, which is an hour away. We met on Plentyoffish (pof) and only had like one IM conversation before he asked if I wanted to met. I wasn't doing anything and really needed something to get me out of my funk so I said yes and I did like his profile. So he came to Lakeland and we ate at Fridays, dinner went ok and we decided to go bowling since it was close. I was so scared that I was gonna run into Paul there on a date of his own, but luckily that didn't happen. We bowled one game and then sat in his car and talked for about an hour. It was an ok time and I went to bed in a good mood. We hadn't talked on the phone since then but he invited me over to his place today to watch a movie and cuddle. And my opinion on cuddling is, if a guy mentions cuddling in his profile or right away he's normally a desperate for attention. So I don't really see this going anywhere but at least for right now it's something.
Then Sat I met Brett in Plant City. I also met Brett off of pof, we've had a couple of IM conversations and I was in no hurry to met him but figured why not, again something to do. He lives with his parents, which I know I can't say too much because I'm currently living with my mom, but he doesn't work. Now he's in school but he goes to a Tech school for like refrigeration and has classes M-F until 2pm. He also has a past, doing lots of drugs and getting being arrested. Not really someone I'd want to bring home to mom. But we sat at a bar and then played pool for a while and I had a good time. He kept asking if I had a good time and telling me he had a good time. I know what it's like to be excited about someone but he seems to be going a little overboard. So again, I don't really see this going anywhere but at least for right now it's something.
Friday Clark/Sabo (he normally goes by Sabo but I don't know if I feel comfortable calling him that) came all the way to Lakeland from Altamonte Springs, which is an hour away. We met on Plentyoffish (pof) and only had like one IM conversation before he asked if I wanted to met. I wasn't doing anything and really needed something to get me out of my funk so I said yes and I did like his profile. So he came to Lakeland and we ate at Fridays, dinner went ok and we decided to go bowling since it was close. I was so scared that I was gonna run into Paul there on a date of his own, but luckily that didn't happen. We bowled one game and then sat in his car and talked for about an hour. It was an ok time and I went to bed in a good mood. We hadn't talked on the phone since then but he invited me over to his place today to watch a movie and cuddle. And my opinion on cuddling is, if a guy mentions cuddling in his profile or right away he's normally a desperate for attention. So I don't really see this going anywhere but at least for right now it's something.
Then Sat I met Brett in Plant City. I also met Brett off of pof, we've had a couple of IM conversations and I was in no hurry to met him but figured why not, again something to do. He lives with his parents, which I know I can't say too much because I'm currently living with my mom, but he doesn't work. Now he's in school but he goes to a Tech school for like refrigeration and has classes M-F until 2pm. He also has a past, doing lots of drugs and getting being arrested. Not really someone I'd want to bring home to mom. But we sat at a bar and then played pool for a while and I had a good time. He kept asking if I had a good time and telling me he had a good time. I know what it's like to be excited about someone but he seems to be going a little overboard. So again, I don't really see this going anywhere but at least for right now it's something.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Closure
Well, after five months of being broken up it's finally 100% over, and I got a goodbye. It was really hard and of course I cried off and on the whole day. But I feel I might finally have closure.
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Updates
Exercise: I've starting jogging with my friend April and her husband. We've been taking it kinda slow but I'm ok with that. We've doing each week twice instead of just once. But I should still be about to the 5k in Feb like I want to. I've kinda cut back on the bike riding and my 8 minutes in the morning, but I will get back to them next week!
Boys: Like the last post states I've done with him. I've also hidden my profile on plentyoffish for the moment. I think I need to give myself a little more time before I try again.
Friends: Still talking to Lori, Amanda, and Eileen.
Me: I kinda feel like either I've undone everything I did in the past five months or that they just don't mean anything anymore. But maybe that's just cause of having a bad weekend or knowing that I still have lots to work on. Either way I think that feeling is going to change this coming up weekend.
Puzzles: I finally got a frame for my puzzle, but I don't have any place to hang it. I'm gonna wait til at least December to start on the next one.
Volunteering: I haven't been to the SPCA in three weeks, just haven't really felt like it. I'm on vacation this coming up Thursday til next Wednesday so I might not go this week either, but I will be back the following week.
Boys: Like the last post states I've done with him. I've also hidden my profile on plentyoffish for the moment. I think I need to give myself a little more time before I try again.
Friends: Still talking to Lori, Amanda, and Eileen.
Me: I kinda feel like either I've undone everything I did in the past five months or that they just don't mean anything anymore. But maybe that's just cause of having a bad weekend or knowing that I still have lots to work on. Either way I think that feeling is going to change this coming up weekend.
Puzzles: I finally got a frame for my puzzle, but I don't have any place to hang it. I'm gonna wait til at least December to start on the next one.
Volunteering: I haven't been to the SPCA in three weeks, just haven't really felt like it. I'm on vacation this coming up Thursday til next Wednesday so I might not go this week either, but I will be back the following week.
Goodbye to you
I think I've finally come to realize that he will never change and we will never work. It truly saddens me. I really thought we were going to get back together and be stronger then ever. It has really effected me in a negative way this weekend. I had McDonald's for the first time in about two months. I had a Big Mac meal and ate the whole thing. Half of it would have been enough for me, but I ate the whole thing. Then for lunch yesterday I had two hamburgers! Even before I started eating less I wouldn't have eaten that much for lunch. And I haven't done shit this whole weekend, I don't even know if I need to do laundry or not. I've been online all day long, playing that mobsters game on myspace. The only productive thing I've done today is finish my budget on Microsoft Money. But I've decided to give myself this weekend to grieve and then starting tomorrow I was going to focus on getting my life together. Getting over him/us and moving on. I think it's ok to give myself this weekend but no more!
My dedication to him
Not word for word, but it's the closest. I hope to never offer you a beer again.
Gravel by: Ani Difranco
I heard the sound of your bike
as your wheels hit the gravel
and your engine in the driveway, cutting off
I pushed through the screen door
and I stood out on the porch
thinking fight, fight, fight, at all costs
But instead I let you in
just like I've always done
I sat you down and offered you a beer
and across the kitchen table
I fired several rounds
but you were still sitting there when the smoke cleared
You came crawling back to say
that you want to make good in the end
oh, let me count the ways that I abhore you
you were never a good lay
and you never were a good friend
but oh, what can I say, I adore you
All I need is my leather
one t-shirt and two socks
I'll keep my hands warm in your pockets
and you can use the engine blocks
we'll ride out to California
with my arms around your chest
and i'll pretend this is real
cuz this is what I like best
You've been juggling two women
like a stupid circus clown
telling us both we are the one
and maybe you can keep me
from ever being happy
but you're not going to stop me
from having fun
So let's go, before I change my mind
I'll leave the luggage of all your lies behind
cuz I am bigger than everything that came before
you were never very kind
and you let me way down every time
but oh, what can I say, I adore you
Gravel by: Ani Difranco
I heard the sound of your bike
as your wheels hit the gravel
and your engine in the driveway, cutting off
I pushed through the screen door
and I stood out on the porch
thinking fight, fight, fight, at all costs
But instead I let you in
just like I've always done
I sat you down and offered you a beer
and across the kitchen table
I fired several rounds
but you were still sitting there when the smoke cleared
You came crawling back to say
that you want to make good in the end
oh, let me count the ways that I abhore you
you were never a good lay
and you never were a good friend
but oh, what can I say, I adore you
All I need is my leather
one t-shirt and two socks
I'll keep my hands warm in your pockets
and you can use the engine blocks
we'll ride out to California
with my arms around your chest
and i'll pretend this is real
cuz this is what I like best
You've been juggling two women
like a stupid circus clown
telling us both we are the one
and maybe you can keep me
from ever being happy
but you're not going to stop me
from having fun
So let's go, before I change my mind
I'll leave the luggage of all your lies behind
cuz I am bigger than everything that came before
you were never very kind
and you let me way down every time
but oh, what can I say, I adore you
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